Inner Critic

Sunday, 1/27/13

Holy crap, it's been more then a week since I posted!  How quickly life can get away from a person.  Two a day workouts, a full time job, a full time marriage, and full time kids leaves very little free time.  It's all good though.  I love my life right now, with the exception of my job and even that will be working itself out sooner then I anticipated.  But let's get to it.

Today I ran (cried a little and stumbled some) 16 miles.  Let me start by saying that it was 25 degrees out with 10MPH wind.  Every damn step of this run sucked!  I even cried a little at the end.  The only thing that really kept me from quitting was that I posted it on Facebook and I CAN'T be a liar on Facebook.  I know how twisted that sounds, but it is totally true. Around mile 10 my inner critic, whom I choose to call Matilda, started in.  Her glasses pulled down on her nose, eyes glaring over the rims,  mouth pursed and finger wagging.  Yep, she had the whole 9 yards going on today.  She even called me an idiot for thinking that I can  do this.  She thinks I should take my butt home and settle it down on couch and knit a blanket or something.  She thinks I'm too old to trying something like this for this first time.  She told me to just knock it off and go back home where I belong.  She is such a bitch!  It's a good thing I have Facebook to keep me going.  It's all about accountability to me.  The whole 16 miles may not have been pretty but I finished them.  I wanted to quit.  I said out loud "I can't."  I even cried a little.  But, in the end I kept pushing and I finished it.  I'm not sure how I'm going to convince my mind and my body that we can add 10 more miles on to that before April 28th.  I guess I'll have to worry about that in two weeks before my nest schedule long run (18 miles).

Here's the breakdown:
16miles; 3:04:18; 11:31ce; 2282calories burned

Now working backwards through my week.  It was sub 0 windchill temps for most of the week which makes it extremely difficult to go outside and run, especially with my lung issues.  So, I found a sufficient substitute in spinning.  It works the same muscle groups with lower impact.  It may become my new obsession.  Like I need another one, right?  I'm still working on two a day workouts and the PT sessions with Lindsay have been kicking butt and taking names.  The workouts have been challenging, I even maybe wanted to punch her a time or two (Shhh, don't tell her...sorry boo, I <3 U).  It's all led up to a much better stamina then I could have expected.  It's hard for me to see the end goal yet but each day gets me a little closer to believing in myself and my ability to smash this goal. 

I would like to keep telling you all about my week but I am sitting at Biggby in an extremely uncomfortable chair and my back and legs are screaming at me to go home and put on my pajamas.  I just want to end with the fact that I have kicked butt with my diet this week too.  Stayed within my calorie goal and not indulged in something sinful every single day, even when I was in a stupid "lunch provided" training for two days.  I made the best possible choice that I could and brought the extra large cookies (that came with the "boxed" lunch) to my husband at the end of the day.  My willpower was working 110% this week which gave me more energy and puffed my chest up with self-pride a little bit.  Overall, a great week!

January 20, 2013

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Herbalife - Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla Rs, 2 Tablespoons	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Herbalife Healthy Meal Shake Mix - Nutritional Shake Mix 2 Scoop of Protein Powder, 28 g	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Generic - Banana , 100 grams	89	23g	0g	1g	0mg	1mg	12g	3g
Herbalife - Instant Herbal Beverage With Tea Extracts [Raspberry Flavour], 1.7 g	5	1g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Coffee W/Cream - French Vanilla, 1 Tbsp	37	6g	2g	0g	0mg	30mg	6g	0g
Dinner
Guerrero - White Corn Tortillas, 2 tortillas	110	22g	2g	3g	0mg	10mg	2g	3g
Generic/Target Brand - Black Beans (Net Carbs), 1/2 cup	100	20g	0g	7g	0mg	400mg	1g	5g
Tomatoes - Grape Tomatoes, 1/4 cup	27	6g	0g	1g	0mg	8mg	4g	2g
Martins - Shredded Mild Cheddar Cheese, 1/8 cup (28g)	50	1g	5g	4g	15mg	85mg	0g	0g
Lettuce - Green leaf, raw, 1 cup shredded	5	1g	0g	0g	0mg	10mg	0g	0g
Ortega - Mild Taco Sauce, 4 tbsp	40	8g	0g	0g	0mg	480mg	4g	0g
Borrelli - Extra Large Black Olives, 3 olives	20	0g	2g	0g	0mg	105mg	0g	0g
Ground Beef Chuck - 80/20, 4 oz	280	0g	22g	19g	80mg	75mg	0g	0g
Rice-A-Roni - Spanish Rice (Prepared As Per Directions W/Butter & Tomatoes), 0.5 cup prepared	150	26g	4g	4g	0mg	720mg	5g	2g
Old El Paso - Refried Beans-Value Size, 1/2 cup (120g)	90	16g	3g	5g	0mg	440mg	0g	5g
Homemade - Red Velvet Cake With Buttercream Frosting, 1 slice	324	55g	10g	4g	16mg	249mg	44g	1g
Snacks
Homemade - Pico De Gallo, 4 oz	30	6g	0g	1g	0mg	10mg	4g	1g
Tostitos - Scoops! (Stone-Ground White Corn), 1 oz (28g/About 13 chips)	140	19g	7g	2g	0mg	120mg	0g	2g
Home Made - Red Velvet Cupcake With Cream Cheese Frosting, 1 cupcake	200	31g	16g	3g	11mg	79mg	23g	0g
Godiva - Strawberry Cream Truffle, 1 truffle	105	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	0g
TOTAL:	2,022	251g	79g	84g	122mg	3,502mg	114g	24g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes	Sets	Reps	Weight
Cardiovascular
Extreme Results	390	60
TRX	190	60
Stretching, hatha yoga	144	60
TOTALS:	724	180	0	0	0

January 21, 2013

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Coffee W/Cream - French Vanilla, 1 Tbsp	37	6g	2g	0g	0mg	30mg	6g	0g
Herbalife - Instant Herbal Beverage With Tea Extracts [Raspberry Flavour], 1.7 g	5	1g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Generic - Banana , 100 grams	89	23g	0g	1g	0mg	1mg	12g	3g
Herbalife - Turtle Cheesecake Shake, 16 oz	280	17g	0g	24g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Lunch
Herbalife - Instant Herbal Beverage With Tea Extracts [Raspberry Flavour], 1.7 g	5	1g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Herbalife Healthy Meal Shake Mix - Nutritional Shake Mix 2 Scoop of Protein Powder, 28 g	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Herbalife - Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla Rs, 2 Tablespoons	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Graham Crackers Honey Maid - Graham Crackers, 0.5 crackers	33	6g	1g	1g	0mg	45mg	2g	0g
Pineapple - Raw, all varieties, 0.25 cup, diced	19	5g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	4g	1g
Dinner
Pork - Cured, bacon, cooked, pan-fried, 3 slice cooked	126	0g	10g	9g	27mg	575mg	0g	0g
Natures Own - Low Cal Light Whole Wheat Bread, 2 slice	70	22g	0g	6g	0mg	240mg	2g	10g
Lettuce - Green leaf, raw, 0.33 cup shredded	2	0g	0g	0g	0mg	3mg	0g	0g
Tomato X4 Slices - Tomato Slice 1 Slice, Thin/Small (15g), 3 slice	9	3g	0g	0g	0mg	3mg	0g	3g
Miracle Whip - Light Dressing, 15 grams (1 Tbsp)	20	2g	2g	0g	0mg	125mg	1g	0g
Progresso Light - Italian Style Meatball Soup, 1 Cup	80	13g	2g	3g	5mg	480mg	5g	2g
Cheez-It - Cheese Crackers, 27 Crackers	150	17g	8g	3g	0mg	230mg	0g	0g
Snacks
Pamela's Products - Dark Chocolate Chocolate Chunk Cookies, 2 cookies	170	21g	9g	1g	5mg	60mg	14g	2g
Homemade - Pico De Gallo, 4 oz	30	6g	0g	1g	0mg	10mg	4g	1g
Tostitos - Scoops! (Stone-Ground White Corn), 1 oz (28g/About 13 chips)	140	19g	7g	2g	0mg	120mg	0g	2g
Archer Farms - Cashew Cranberry Almond Trail Mix, 1/4 cup	140	12g	9g	4g	0mg	0mg	7g	2g
Home Made - Coconut Macaroons, 1 macaroon	71	8g	4g	1g	4mg	78mg	1g	0g
Homemade - Red Velvet Cake With Buttercream Frosting, 1 slice	324	55g	10g	4g	16mg	249mg	44g	1g
TOTAL:	2,020	247g	70g	90g	57mg	2,929mg	104g	27g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes	Sets	Reps	Weight
Cardiovascular
Spinning®	364	60
Extreme Results	367	60
Circuit training, general	294	35
TOTALS:	1,025	155	0	0	0

January 22, 2013

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Cheez-It - Cheese Crackers, 27 Crackers	150	17g	8g	3g	0mg	230mg	0g	0g
Herbalife - Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla Rs, 2 Tablespoons	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Herbalife Healthy Meal Shake Mix - Nutritional Shake Mix 2 Scoop of Protein Powder, 28 g	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Coffee W/Cream - French Vanilla, 1 Tbsp	37	6g	2g	0g	0mg	30mg	6g	0g
Lunch
Herbalife - Turtle Cheesecake Shake, 16 oz	280	17g	0g	24g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Dinner
Tuna and Noodle Casserole, 1 serving	293	48g	5g	17g	65mg	825mg	7g	8g
Snacks
Graham Crackers Honey Maid - Graham Crackers, 1 crackers	65	12g	2g	1g	0mg	90mg	4g	1g
Laughing Cow - Light Wedge, 1 wedge	35	1g	1g	2g	5mg	210mg	1g	0g
Sun-Maid - Raisins (Tbsp), 1/8 cup	65	16g	0g	1g	0mg	3mg	15g	1g
Pretzels - Snyder's Snaps, 32.0 minis	160	33g	1g	4g	0mg	520mg	1g	1g
Generic - Fresh Ground Almond Butter, 2 Tablespoon	180	14g	19g	10g	0mg	8mg	0g	4g
Generic - Rice Cake- Caramel Corn, 1 rice cake	50	11g	0g	1g	0mg	30mg	3g	0g
Pamela's Products - Dark Chocolate Chocolate Chunk Cookies, 2 cookies	170	21g	9g	1g	5mg	60mg	14g	2g
TOTAL:	1,705	206g	53g	94g	75mg	2,686mg	53g	17g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes	Sets	Reps	Weight
Cardiovascular
Spinning®	404	60
Extreme Results	391	60
TOTALS:	795	120	0	0	0

January 23, 2013

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Herbalife - Rocky Road Shake, 1 Shake (2scoops chocolate PDM & 2 scoops dutch choc formula 1)	255	42g	5g	25g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Generic - Banana , 100 grams	89	23g	0g	1g	0mg	1mg	12g	3g
Coffee Mate French Vanilla Liquid - Coffee Creamer, 2 tbsp (15ml)	70	10g	3g	0g	0mg	0mg	10g	0g
Lunch
Herbalife - Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla Rs, 2 Tablespoons	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Herbalife Healthy Meal Shake Mix - Nutritional Shake Mix 2 Scoop of Protein Powder, 28 g	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Generic - Celery Sticks 10cm (4inch) 111 g, 333 g	45	12g	0g	3g	0mg	264mg	6g	6g
Laughing Cow - Light Wedge, 1 wedge	35	1g	1g	2g	5mg	210mg	1g	0g
Seedless Red Grapes - Generic, 151 g	104	27g	0g	3g	0mg	3mg	23g	0g
Strawberries - Raw, 0.5 cup, halves	24	6g	0g	1g	0mg	1mg	4g	2g
Dinner
Rev - Cauliflower and Red Pepper Chowder, 12 oz	297	16g	3g	4g	7mg	76mg	6g	3g
Spinach - Raw, 1 cup	7	1g	0g	1g	0mg	24mg	0g	1g
Strawberries - Raw, 1 cup, halves	49	12g	0g	1g	0mg	2mg	7g	3g
Veg - Green Onion, 1/4 cup chopped	10	2g	0g	0g	0mg	5mg	1g	1g
Dressing-Kraft - Light Rasberry Vinegarette, 2 tbsp	50	5g	4g	0g	0mg	240mg	5g	0g
Cheese - Feta, 1 oz	75	1g	6g	4g	25mg	316mg	1g	0g
Natures Own - Low Cal Light Whole Wheat Bread, 2 slice	70	22g	0g	6g	0mg	240mg	2g	10g
Kraft - Singles - American Cheese, 2 slice (19g)	120	2g	9g	6g	30mg	460mg	2g	0g
Dove - Dark Chocolate Almond Promises, 1 piece	42	4g	3g	1g	1mg	2mg	3g	0g
Snacks
Kroger - Carb Smart--Yogurt White Chocolate Raspberry, 6 oz	60	4g	2g	8g	10mg	90mg	3g	0g
Tostitos - Scoops! (Stone-Ground White Corn), 1 oz (28g/About 13 chips)	140	19g	7g	2g	0mg	120mg	0g	2g
Homemade - Pico De Gallo, 4 oz	30	6g	0g	1g	0mg	10mg	4g	1g
TOTAL:	1,792	225g	49g	99g	78mg	2,744mg	92g	32g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes	Sets	Reps	Weight
Cardiovascular
Extreme Results	330	60
Circuit training, general	294	35
TOTALS:	624	95	0	0	0

January 24, 2013

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Herbalife - Protein Drink Mix - Vanilla Rs, 1 Tablespoons	55	3g	2g	8g	0mg	170mg	1g	0g
Coffee Mate French Vanilla Liquid - Coffee Creamer, 2 tbsp (15ml)	70	10g	3g	0g	0mg	0mg	10g	0g
Herbalife Healthy Meal Shake Mix - Nutritional Shake Mix 2 Scoop of Protein Powder, 28 g	110	5g	3g	15g	0mg	340mg	1g	0g
Kroger Peanut Butter - Creamy Peanut Butter , 1 tbsp	95	4g	8g	4g	0mg	75mg	2g	1g
Lunch
Panera Bread - Napa Almond Chicken Salad - 1/2 Sandwich, 1/2 sandwich	340	44g	13g	15g	35mg	590mg	6g	2g
Vlassic - Kosher Dill Whole Pickle, 1/4 pickle	3	1g	0g	0g	0mg	105mg	0g	0g
Panera - Potato Chips - Kettle Cooked, 1 oz	150	17g	8g	2g	0mg	170mg	0g	1g
Dinner
Mikes - Grilled Chicken Breast, 5 oz	126	0g	3g	23g	57mg	75mg	0g	0g
Kroger - Stir-Fry Vegetables With Rice, 1 1/2 cup	140	28g	0g	4g	0mg	30mg	2g	2g
La Choy - Soy Sauce, 3 tbsp	30	3g	0g	3g	0mg	3,480mg	0g	0g
Dove - Dark Chocolate Almond Promises, 1 piece	42	4g	3g	1g	1mg	2mg	3g	0g
Bread - Rye, 1 oz	73	14g	1g	2g	0mg	187mg	0g	2g
Smuckers - Grape Jelly, 1 tbs (20g)	50	13g	0g	0g	0mg	5mg	12g	0g
Snacks
Nabisco - Wheat Thins, Original Whole Grain Family Size, 16 crackers	140	22g	5g	2g	0mg	230mg	4g	3g
Laughing Cow - Light Wedge, 1 wedge	35	1g	1g	2g	5mg	210mg	1g	0g
Cuties California Mandarins - Clementines, 1 orange	40	9g	0g	1g	0mg	0mg	7g	2g
Apples - Raw, with skin, 1 cup, quartered or chopped	65	17g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	13g	3g
Kroger - Carb Smart--Yogurt White Chocolate Raspberry, 6 oz	60	4g	2g	8g	10mg	90mg	3g	0g
TOTAL:	1,624	199g	52g	90g	108mg	5,760mg	65g	16g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes	Sets	Reps	Weight
Cardiovascular
ZoneUp	364	60
Spinning®	404	60
TOTALS:	768	120	0	0	0

January 25, 2013

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Herbalife Healthy Meal Shake W/ Van. Pdm - Blueberry Muffin, 16 oz.	215	18g	1g	17g	0mg	0mg	0g	5g
Coffee W/Cream - French Vanilla, 1 Tbsp	37	6g	2g	0g	0mg	30mg	6g	0g
Lunch
Panera Bread - Bacon Turkey Bravo 1/2 Sandwich W/O Cheese Only 1 Pc Bread, 1/2 Sandwich	280	23g	12g	18g	43mg	1,270mg	5g	2g
Panera - Potato Chips - Kettle Cooked, 1 oz	150	17g	8g	2g	0mg	170mg	0g	1g
Dinner
Chipolte - Burrito Bol brown rice, steak, black beans, fajita vegetables, tomato and corn salsa, lettuce, 1 bol	555	71g	13g	45g	65mg	1,730mg	12g	17g
Dove - Dark Chocolate Almond Promises, 1 piece	42	4g	3g	1g	1mg	2mg	3g	0g
Snacks
Domino - Non-Dairy Creamer Powder, 3 teaspoon	30	3g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Sweet N' Low - Sweetener, 1/10 tsp (.5g)	0	1g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	1g	0g
Generic - Coffee- Black 8 oz., 8 oz	2	1g	0g	1g	0mg	5mg	0g	0g
Nabisco - Wheat Thins, Original Whole Grain Family Size, 16 crackers	140	22g	5g	2g	0mg	230mg	4g	3g
Laughing Cow - Light Wedge, 1 wedge	35	1g	1g	2g	5mg	210mg	1g	0g
Cuties California Mandarins - Clementines, 1 orange	40	9g	0g	1g	0mg	0mg	7g	2g
Kroger - Carb Smart--Yogurt White Chocolate Raspberry, 6 oz	60	4g	2g	8g	10mg	90mg	3g	0g
Pineapple - Raw, all varieties, 0.25 cup, diced	19	5g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	4g	1g
Fruit - Red Seedless Grapes, 0.25 cup	26	7g	0g	0g	0mg	1mg	6g	0g
TOTAL:	1,631	192g	47g	97g	124mg	3,738mg	52g	31g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes	Sets	Reps	Weight
Cardiovascular
Extreme Results	375	60
Stretching, hatha yoga	144	60
TOTALS:	519	120	0	0	0

January 26, 2013

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Herbalife Healthy Meal Shake - Oatmeal Scotchie, 1 shake	285	0g	0g	24g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Tazo - Organic Chia Black Tea, 1 cup	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Coffee W/Cream - French Vanilla, 1 Tbsp	37	6g	2g	0g	0mg	30mg	6g	0g
Lunch
Herbalife Shake - Blueberry Cheesecake, 2 cups	230	22g	0g	24g	2mg	200mg	0g	0g
Dinner
Flat Out - Rosemary and Olive Oil Artisan Fold It Flat Bread, 1 Flatbread (43g)	110	20g	1g	6g	0mg	290mg	1g	3g
Kroger - Pizza Sauce - Pizza Parlor Style-Updated 10-11-10, 1/4 cup	30	4g	1g	1g	0mg	240mg	4g	1g
Generic - Extra Lean Ground Sirloin - Half Pound Burger, 0.13 lb	65	0g	2g	11g	30mg	38mg	0g	0g
Hormel - Pepperoni (1.77 g Per Slice), 6 slice	60	0g	5g	2g	15mg	210mg	0g	0g
Red Onion - Raw, 0.25 cup (160 g)	16	4g	0g	1g	0mg	2mg	2g	1g
Kroger - *Shredded Mozzarella Cheese Fat Free, 1/2 cup	100	2g	0g	16g	10mg	420mg	0g	0g
Spinach - Raw, 1 cup	7	1g	0g	1g	0mg	24mg	0g	1g
Generic - Green Onion, 1/8 cup	10	2g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	1g	1g
Ocean Spray - Cranberries, Dried Small Package, 1 Tablespoon	33	8g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	7g	5g
Cheese - Feta, 1 oz	75	1g	6g	4g	25mg	316mg	1g	0g
Blueberries - Raw, 0.25 cup	21	5g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	4g	1g
Homemade - Strawberry Balsamic Vinegarette, 2 tbsp	30	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Snacks
Biggby - Brewed Coffee (Regular, Decaf, Flavored, etc.), 1 Tall	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Torani - Sugar Free Vanilla Syrup, 2 Tbsp	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	5mg	0g	0g
Cream - Half and half, 2 tbsp	39	1g	3g	1g	11mg	12mg	0g	0g
Cheez-It - Cheese Crackers, 27 Crackers	150	17g	8g	3g	0mg	230mg	0g	0g
Coffee W/Cream - French Vanilla, 1 Tbsp	37	6g	2g	0g	0mg	30mg	6g	0g
Tazo - Organic Chia Black Tea, 1 cup	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Cuties California Mandarins - Clementines, 1 orange	40	9g	0g	1g	0mg	0mg	7g	2g
Eddy's Grand Chocolate Chip Ice Cream - Ice Cream, 1/2 cup	170	18g	9g	3g	25mg	45mg	15g	0g
Oreo - Golden Oreo Vanilla Sandwich Cookies, 3 cookies (34g)	160	24g	7g	1g	0mg	120mg	12g	0g
TOTAL:	1,705	150g	46g	99g	118mg	2,212mg	66g	15g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes	Sets	Reps	Weight
Cardiovascular
Piyo	220	45
TOTALS:	220	45	0	0	0