"Do not allow yourself to be held hostage by anything you don't need. Let go." -Emmy, Bikram student/teacher
I read this quote today in the book that I am reading called Hell Bent. The book is about Extreme Yoga Asana Students who compete for trophies and recognition in this highly competitive arena. Yoga and competition is one of the biggest oxymoron's I can think of. I instruct my students at the beginning of each class to let go of competition, expectation and judgement (as was taught to me by my Yogafit training). These people are certainly an interesting breed. They are not really a stereotypical group of hippie freaks either. They come from all walks of life to learn, practice, and compete. Interesting, to say the least. The quote though is something else entirely to me. I can be taken hostage by a single thought at any moment. I can hold on to that single thought or situation for a day, a week, sometimes even a month (if it's a really hot issue for me). In fact I think there may be a few things that I have held on to for far longer than that.
I am currently in need of some significant cooperation and quiet. As Sundays wind down I start to contemplate the week ahead of me. It starts with planning my work schedule, reviewing my teaching commitments and then fitting in my runs and workouts around those things. I wish it would stay that neatly in my head. See, I am thoroughly dissatisfied with my current employment right now. When I begin to contemplate the week ahead, I tend to get depressed and aggravated about having to go there and do a job for people who treat all of us as if we are pawns in their game. I have to stick it out just a little while longer before I can actively look for a new job. In the meantime, I have to find things to distract me from this anxiety ridden reality. Running does that for me most of the time and today was no exception. I went out to do my 6 mile training run today and I did let go. Even if it was only for that hour. I was one with my breath, my legs, the trail. I noticed the cardinal perched on the fence picking berries. I noticed the kitten hiding in the woods as a strode by, watching me as if I might be a predator. I noticed the cold air entering my lungs and patiently waiting for my body to assimilate to it. I noticed the direction of the wind and compensated my pace. There is nothing like a nice contemplative run to make the rest of the day feel just a little bit better.
As a nice bonus, I got to see a good friend, and a new friend that I wasn't expecting to see when I stopped for my post run cup of Joe.
I turned down the pace of my run significantly today. Coming off that PR on Thursday, I wanted to take it easy. I took all of my scheduled walk breaks. I felt pretty good throughout the run
6.01miles; 1:05:09; 10:51 pace; 567 calories.
November 25, 2012
|Kashi - Frozen Blueberry Waffles , 2 waffles||150||25g||5g||4g||0mg||340mg||3g||6g|
|Great Value - Light Reduced Calorie Syrup, 1/12 cup||33||9g||0g||0g||0mg||57mg||8g||0g|
|Generic - Egg (Scrambled), 2 egg||120||2g||10g||12g||390mg||130mg||0g||0g|
|Earth Balance - Natural Buttery Spread - Original, 0.5 tbsp (14 g)||50||0g||6g||0g||0mg||50mg||0g||0g|
|Blueberries - Raw, 0.25 cup||21||5g||0g||0g||0mg||0mg||4g||1g|
|Grapes - Raw, 0.5 cup||31||8g||0g||0g||0mg||1mg||7g||0g|
|Fresh Fruit - Pineapple, 75 g or 1 cup||39||10g||0g||0g||0mg||1mg||8g||1g|
|Herbalife - Cinnamon Roll Shake, 8 oz||250||0g||0g||23g||0mg||0mg||0g||0g|
|Jiffy - Corn Bread Muffins W/ Skim Milk, 1 muffin||141||5g||4g||3g||27mg||57mg||6g||0g|
|Robert's - Raw Honey, 1 teaspoon||20||8g||0g||0g||0mg||1mg||8g||0g|
|Chicken Tortilla Soup, 1 serving(s)||208||34g||2g||14g||29mg||1,174mg||8g||6g|
|Kraft Foods - Nabisco - Oreo Cookies , 2 cookies (34g)||107||16g||5g||1g||0mg||93mg||9g||1g|
|Generic - Banana , 100 grams||89||23g||0g||1g||0mg||1mg||12g||3g|
|Coffee W/Cream - French Vanilla, 1 Tbsp||37||6g||2g||0g||0mg||30mg||6g||0g|
|Richland Orchards - All Natrual Greek Yogurt Bar, 1 Bar||160||22g||6g||7g||0mg||40mg||11g||5g|
|Herbalife 24 - Rebuild Endurance , 2 Scoops (44.5g)||160||27g||1g||10g||10mg||250mg||14g||0g|
|Torani - Sugar Free Vanilla Syrup, 2 Tbsp||0||0g||0g||0g||0mg||5mg||0g||0g|
|Cream - Half and half, 2 tbsp||39||1g||3g||1g||11mg||12mg||0g||0g|
|Running (jogging), 6 mph (10 min mile)||567||65|